Where did you find it?
Hudson, CO. One of our patients gave me one today. I work for a surgeon and she came into see us today. As we were talking about our cancers hers being breast, mine being colon. I was sharing with her a story of a women working at Target and I went through her check out line you could tell she only had one breast and wore a lymph-edema sleeve on her arm. You could see that she had one breast, I asked her if she was interested in getting a free Bra and breast prosthesis and she said "I wish". I can't afford one. I explained to her who I was and what I did for a living. And offered her my phone number so that I could hook her up with a free bra and prosthesis through a local women's store who donates them for free. It was at that time she gave me a Hope bracelet.
What did you do with it?
I kept it.
Are you wearing it today?
Yes, I am wearing it now.
What hope do you want nurtured in 2012?
My hope is to excourage other cancer patients never to give up. There is always hope in every situation. Without hope we lose the battle to fight! 

Cindy, your story made our day! So pleased
you received a hope bracelet.  Thank you for sharing
the story of your work and your hope for 2012.
We share your hope and you will be in our prayers.
Thank you for volunteering as a Hope Ranger--your
bracelets will be sent in the next few days. 

Saying Farewell


This is my friend, Kate. She was one of the strongest and bravest people I have ever known. Kate is gone now from this life--she died this morning, leaving behind so many who love her dearly. She will always be in our hearts... There are so many songs from camp that come to mind when I think of Kate, but this one is the one that comes back to me now (and since I always sing 'morning' that is what I put--though the lyrics say noon day):
The Golden Day is dying beyond the purple hill
The Golden Day is dying beyond the purple hill
And when the wood is dark yes the nightingale will sing
And when the wood is dark yes the nightingale will sing
And soon beyond the meadow the silver moon will swing
And soon beyond the meadow the silver moon will swing
The Lark that sang at morning in dusty wood is still

Read more: HEM - THE GOLDEN DAY IS DYING LYRICS http://www.metrolyrics.com/the-golden-day-is-dying-lyrics-hem.html#ixzz1mmXboyHh 
Copied from MetroLyrics.com  
Ours is not the task of 
fixing the entire world at once, 
but of stretching out to 
mend the part of the world 
that is within our reach.

Clarissa Pinkola Estes

We had gorgeous sun today, however, walking along the sidewalk this afternoon I found a water spot in the shape of a heart! How could I pass up taking the picture and playing with it?

I needed a lift today and this made me smile. Hope it will bring a smile to your face too!

Where did you find it?
Public Library Shelf
Tucson, Az 85718
What did you do with it?.
 I kept it.
Are you wearing it today?
What hope do you want nurtured in 2012?
Obama gets re-elected.
I will pass it on for someone else to find.

We are very grateful for your sharing where
you found the hope bracelet. There are many of us who 
share your hope for 2012. 
May hope blossom in you as you pass on the
bracelet for someone else to find!
... and After."
This picture is from the Pima County Public Library photo collection on Flikcr

February begins


The title of one of my devotional readings this morning was, Hold on to hope, and was based on scripture from the book of Isaiah 40:31 "But those who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength."  A wonderful strong and encourage verse, and the author wrote a very good reflection based on it--one I am sure I will reread in the future. However, given my current circumstances (loved one in hospice, a dear friend in ICU, another possibly facing more cancer treatment, and a father in his late eighties and struggling with cancer, heart and other health issues) feel differently than the author in one important understanding. The author states that, "...the most painful part of any suffering is fear."  At this point, in regards to my loved one in hospice, it is not fear that are living with, rather it is living daily with the dichotomy of  despair and hope. The incrementally slow decline toward death and the daily suffering does not cause me to fear, but it does make me despair at times. 

In the past I have lived with the two sided coin of faith/doubt. I know from experience I can live as a faithful person and still struggle with doubts. These days I am living as a very hopeful and hope-filled person, but at the same time I do struggle with despair that my loved one's release from pain and suffering continues day in and day out. As his full time caregiver, I am confident of being able to do what I need to with medications and other medical related issues his daily care requires--none of that makes me fearful, and the hospice nurses are very good with directions, but I do despair. The sadness and pain that I feel in some moments of this long waiting does not take away my hope for his final healing. While I am not someone who uses the "victory over death" language often, I am a Christian and I trust that when death comes there will be release and healing, and therefore I can say, "victory over cancer" for him--he will at last be at peace and have new life, and that "victory over death". 

I will also point out, just for the record, that as I disagree with the thesaurus putting "lack of faith" as a synonym for the word doubt, I am equally disagreeable  that the first synonym listed in my thesaurus (may be different in others) for despair is "hopelessness."

 I will also just note for the record that the devotion I read this morning was based on Jeremiah 29:11 "For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the LORD...to give you a future with hope."  Two strong passages on hope--a good way to being February.